The only warmth that can keep me from freezing to death are my tears.
All because of him.
Today was the day where we would all die from the cold. I guess it was just a simple,ordinary day. Until After School.
I was walking out of that dump, in the freezing cold and I spotted him.
It was the guy who..dumped me. I saw him looking at me and he was SMILING at me. Everytime my shit stain eyes stare at his beautiful pupils, he usually looks like he doesn't care. He has a habit of doing that. I slightly panicked and went home. Then I started thinking:
"Why don't we talk?"
"Why can't we date again?"
"Why do i still like him and he doesn't even talk to me?"
All of those pathetic questions have only one answer: He doesn't give a single fuck about me. HE NEVER WILL. I really want him back, but it's impossible because 1. He just doesn't like me, I can't take it! And 2....Why would he choose me? There are a bunch of prettier girls, I am not good for him. I am a pile of shit compared to all those girls. They have a better chance of having him while I lost mine.
I can't take hiding all of these feelings anymore. I don't know what to do.
So for the rest of my existence, I will be faking a smile and wiping those tears. Everything would seem ok until I get a reality check. I realize that he will never be mine again. The only thing I can do about it is cry. Why can't I be happy for once in my fucking life?
Love,
A.
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