I don't know what's going on with me right now. On Thursday at school something..happened. I can't even say it to anyone because I promised I wouldn't. As I went home, I couldn't get it out of my head. It was not just anything, it had to do with my past. My entire love history had just boosted up and fell apart at that exact moment. So, I tried to fall asleep. But, the dream was rather odd and it helped me understand that..Love is pain. But, no matter who's heart gets broken once again,everyone will do love again and again. In my dream, I was in a dark room and all I can hear was all of the things 'that person' told me on Thursday echoing.
"I still want to talk to you." "Don't think I forgot about you." "I want to keep this between us."
I couldn't tell whether I was happy about that or not. I wanted it to be over, I didn't want me and 'that person's relationship/friendship to even exist! Then, this person turned on the lights and said that she was my guardian angel. (Although she looked like someone from a 80s movie, perhaps from the Breakfast Club movie.)
Here are a few things she said. " What is going on with you? Stop thinking about that fag! Remember the things he did to you, he left you! So, now he wants to be your 'friend'. If he really cares for you, he would actually talk to you in public. Now listen, I knew you wanted this to happen a LONG time ago. It's 2014!! You may not know him that well, but he doesn't fucking know you! Just ignore him, it will do you good. So keep your head high and forget all those people who tried to hurt you. They aren't worth it."
To my surprise, she was right. I don't need anyone right now. I can live on my own, just like before all this shit happened. I'm okay.
Love,
A <3
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